Monday, September 28, 2009

Green

I'm jealous. I hate myself for it, but I am. I'm tired of being sick, I'm tired of crying every time I see a baby, I'm tired of dreaming of children I may never have, and more than that I'm tired of being this selfish person who can't feel happiness for her blessed friends and family.

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

It really hurts my feelings that my Dad stopped following my Twitter. It's childish and probably silly that I feel rejected by something so tiny, but for someone who pretty much ignores my existence as is, it's hard to swallow that he relegates my twitter as spam. Gee thanks. -posted via text

Saturday, August 01, 2009

Searching through the Mess

So after years of "collecting" games, movies, music, documents, pictures, and other random computer space clogging items...I'm purging? No not purging, attempting to reorganize is probably a better way to put it. I have so many pictures that I've burned to Cd's, backed up on externals, and uploaded to the net, that I'm swimming in duplicates and quadruplet copies of some and only one of others. It's enough to make me go cross eyed. By the same token I have triple the amount of the music and multiple copies of all of it. So I'm reorganizing it all...I think lol. We'll see how long my computer spring cleaning lasts.

Today was grilling day, and the food turned out really good. Chase did a good job of cooking the burgers and hot dogs, and by the time we'd finished eating we were all stuffed. Tomorrow is a bit of a cleaning day I think, I am going to go into the spare room and at least pick up and clean the carpet.

It's been pretty nostalgic going back through all my old photos and seeing how much my life has changed over the last few years. I think I'll post some kind of photo montagish thing with pics of Papa, Pierre, Gran, Willie, maybe some friends, and me. I think I'll attempt that later on in the day though...I'm getting glares from the Hubby for being up so late. Guess I'll try to get some sleep!

Friday, July 31, 2009

Time to Blog Again

10 Things That Happened This Week: A re-entry into actually writing something!

1. No WoW (World of Warcraft) for 10 days till we buy our next round of subscription cards. Yes, I'm a nerd that plays WoW lol. It's kinda sad actually cause Chase (my Hubby) and I talk while he is at work on the game. Not to mention some of my really good friends play and I won't get to goof around with them for a bit. I also am losing some Titansteel cooldowns...like I said...Nerd!

2. I gave my Willie Dog a hair cut. It was uber badly needed, now if only I could get Scrappy (my other doggie) to sit still and not be scared of the trimmer. It's so much more cost efficient for me to trim them, but for some reason Scrappy isn't having it.

3. Made Steak dinner in the skillet. I was actually impressed by how well it turned out. My cooking skills are usually very limited to breakfast foods and things from a box. The steak was tender and it wasn't over cooked! So yay for cooking success :)

4. Weekly In-Law visit. Every Thursday we go out to Chase's grandparents for dinner and a visit. It's also where we can get a free load of laundry in lol. I actually enjoy going out there. I love Chase's Grandparents, they seem to really have accepted me and love me too.

5. Started playing an MMO called City of Heroes. It's pretty fun, but really the best part is that several of my friends play. It's nice to have a group of friends into Gaming. I made a superhero who casts fire magic and can fly woot!

6. Attempting to get the apt ready for a friend to come stay with us for a bit. Lots of cleaning and organizing to do, but I keep putting it off. I'm a major procrastinator like that. I'm hoping while she is here though we can get a game of DnD going. I miss playing more than I like to admit.

7. Trying to get the stuff together to get our Family Bible started. I got it from the funeral home when Papa died. It has his name and information in it. Herbie (my Uncle) got the Flag from his funeral so I got the bible. I want to get some information in it and put it up somewhere safe. It's actually pretty cool, it has a place for your wedding invite, program, and a place to put pictures.

8. Unpacked some of our wedding gifts finally. Getting the kitchen organized was the biggest thing, its nice to have my China and all the kitchen utensils put away and ready to use. (the plate in the picture is dirty which is why there is a spot in the center of it lol)

9. Attempting to get the newish comp set up and usable. I'm disliking the lack of docs, Office, and pictures to access. I need to get everything uploaded on here before to much longer.

10. Having a cookout today, gonna have some friends over for Burgers and such. Should be fun. I bet we'll spend most of our time on electronic devices though lol.

Tuesday, June 30, 2009

Love and Marriage

At first I was going to write a blog in the spirit I’m in right now, which is under medicated. Instead I think I’ll leave the emotional details of losing my Papa and the whining about having a hard time finding a job for later. Love and Marriage!
So I finally tied the knot. I’m now a Mrs. Kind of odd to say that lol. I actually went today and got my new driver’s license and Social Security Card. My wedding was good; though it went so fast I barely remember a lot of it. I tried hard to make the day about things that were very Chase and I. Star Trek, Hitchhikers Guide, Zelda Cake, and Rick Rollin’ everyone at the reception. It was a small wedding, but people came! That was my biggest fear that no one would come. I took a lot of flak for the sheer size of my wedding party, but those girls were very important to me, and I wanted them to be a part of my special day. Married life is good; it’s really not that different, at least not to me. I get to spend every day with my best friend, just the way I like it. We’re struggling, trying to join our lives, our habits, and our laundry lol, but we love each other and seem to come out of most messes fairly well. I’ll post some pics and the video of our rick roll as soon as I find them lol.

Thursday, January 22, 2009

A Year in Review

Today I finally write; I’m obviously late on my year in review, and considering that I didn’t write for the most of it, it would be out of place. I can’t help but feel it would be a great way to get back into the spirit of blogging and even more into the memories I didn’t place in my blog in 08.
My Year in Review (in no particular order)

10. Love and Marriage- Watching one of my best and dearest friends marry my brother. It was awkward and still is, that someone who has known my inner most thoughts and secrets is now married to my brother; yet for all the crazy that it is, someone who I’ve claimed as family for years now officially is.

9. A Trip of a Lifetime- Boston, who needs more than that? I got to travel with Barbs to a place we’d always wanted to go together. The Freedom Trail, the accents, 4th of July with the Boston Pops live, swimming in the Atlantic Ocean, walking past Harvard at 3am, and those are just snippets of the whole trip; it was amazing, and it was once in a lifetime.

8. The Zoo- Scrappy and Indie, the newest members of the Zoo. What was supposed to be a trip to get Chase a cat turned into an adventure of the dog and cat variety. Scrappy (the dog) was for some reason being kept in the kitten section of the human society; my heart broke when I saw his little red self all alone. He looked at me with such gentle kind eyes. I couldn’t resist, and now several months later, I’m in love with his overly hyper sweetness. Indie named after Indiana Jones is clumsy, snuggly, and loves to eat…nothing like his namesake. The two of them have helped make my little family all the more exciting and full.

7. Happy Anniversary Honey- I took Chase to Denver and it was amazing. Chase a Broncos fan of epic proportions was shocked and ecstatic to go to Denver and more so to tour the whole Broncos Stadium, ending with us on the field. He was in love with the whole thing, and going to his dream stadium was topped off with his first time flying. I think he had an amazing time.

6. Graphic Design- I started Graphic Design School and finally found a place where my love of creation was celebrated with good grades and success. I think it was one of the best choices I’ve made concerning education!

5. Halloween- We had a party, not a huge crowd, but a lot of fun. A few close friends eating, drinking, and watching movies. It was a blast…not to mention we all dressed up!

4. Bridesmaids and more Bridesmaids- Going shopping with my Sister and my Roomie to find the dress style, fabric, and colors I wanted in the wedding. I felt like a real bride for once and loved every second of it!

3. Going to the Chapel- Taking my parents out to Camp Calvary so they could see where I want to get married. They weren’t overly impressed, but it felt like I was finally setting the plans into motion.

2. A Bengkins Christmas- This was the year that we got the balance of the holiday right. Chase and I actually enjoyed ourselves; we even had presents for everyone! I can only hope that the holidays from here on out are as happy!

1. Spice and Politics- I’m not a politically tuned person, in fact I’d say I’m the opposite; however, this year I was addicted to it. I watched, I gleaned, I studied, and I voted. For the first time in my life I felt a part of my countries priorities. I cried the night Obama won the election, and I cried when he was sworn in and I’ll leave it at that.

So it was a hectic year, there was tragedy, as there often is in life, but there was joy as well. So with little fan fare another year passes and a new one takes its place. 2009 is a big year for me, I change my last name and start my life as a wife, I move in with a man for the first time since living with my papa, and perhaps if it works out we start our family.

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

Coming Soon