The Zoo

Meet the newest memeber of my zoo...

Albert Baxter...(Baxter for Short)

Note to Self

It occurred to me today as I walked in the doors of Wally World why one does not go shopping on a Saturday. It was insanely packed, reminiscent of tuna swimming in a net. People everywhere, carts everywhere, screaming children everywhere, and ringing cell phones gone nuts. I am a people person, but not a large crowd cannot get where you need to go person. It took me 45 mins to do what I typically do in 15. Note to self; do not shop at Wally World on a Saturday.

The war has begun....

I am fighting an inner battle...and the unexpected thing is which side is losing.

Did she say...*whispers*?

Its crazy to think that summer is now half way over. It seems like it just started, but at the same time seems like I’ve been home for a while. I’ve noticed that I find myself thinking about what I want out of next semester more and more as the summer begins its downhill slope. I have been journaling more of late on this very subject. What do I want out of fall? It’s going to be an interesting semester to say the least. I’ll be working every single morning, but thankfully not early. A very close friend from high school will be moving in with me, bridging the gap of Missouri Meg and Oklahoma Meg. I intend to make the highest GPA I’ve ever made and plan on getting the ball rolling on a semester abroad in Australia for fall of 07. I want to actually do this college thing and stop just sitting at home every night. I want to date, really date….not just randomly happen into a relationship. I want to go to the cultural dinners, movie nights, theatre shows, and even the drag queen contest. I want to study in the Library to say I’ve done it (nerdy right?) and nap on Library lawn. I want to go out with my friends and see a new movie occasionally. I want so many things, and I know that I have no way of packing it all in, but I’m going to try. I tend to put life on the backburner and work instead. I want to be 22/23 and enjoy it. With all these goals in mind there is only one thing I can do…and that is just go for it.

How amazing is life sometimes? I feel so surrounded by people, places, moments, and things that make my heart feel the fullest it has in a long while. As I sit here typing my beloved dog is napping next to me, he refuses to leave my side since I've returned home. On the other side of the room Papa is sitting in his chair also napping, unless I change the channel on the television, then he'd be up and "watching" that. The History channel prattles off some information on World War II and the picture I see through the screendoor outside is of the trees swaying in the wind. Its peaceful and its mine. I cannot express the beauty in stillness that occures here everyday, perhaps I have found a joy here that I had forgotten existed. I miss college very much, at times I feel like I'm going to lose my mind here, but then I have moments like this and it makes the crazy need for my life in Oklahoma vanish. At last it is truely summer for me.

Re uh...re...recap?

For the last week and half I’ve been MIA, and honestly it was nice. I feel like I’ve become addicted to the net in my bored moments, which are many it seems. After a trip to Oklahoma for work, Memorial Day, and my mini-hiking excursion my days have been rather full if I allow myself to actually consider it. The pace however is still much slower than I’m used to and I find myself looking for things to keep my mind occupied. There are a lot of really crappy things going down right now. My best friend is getting married and I can’t go. A chain of events has left me stranded in hillbilly hollow and I will miss his big day. I’m really saddened by this; I love him very much and feel as if I am failing him as a friend by not being there. Anyway I won’t dwell on how bothered I am by that and instead I will get to a happier event. On Monday I went with two of my good friends from hillbilly hollow on a grand adventure. What was initially planed as a three day camping trip, slowly turned more< into a day trip and was a blast. We left around noon and headed to a local Mill/Spring and went hiking. I’ll post a few pictures to show why the Ozarks are one of the most amazing places in the world, but I also have to say I suffered greatly for this adventure. I have a blister a little larger than a dime on my right heel and bug bites all over me, blasted itching, but it was so worth it all. So for your viewing pleasure…the Ozarks in summer.